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Lord, I don't know
What You want from me.
I'm getting tired of
The same old thing.
I wish that I could
Think of something new.
I wish I could stop
Questioning you.

Do I believe You
'Cause I was taught to as a kid?
And did I stop 'cause
My friends did?
I keep looking for a reason
And try to follow my convictions;

But I am afraid
That I won't find the way.
I have been saved,
But is that enough
To open up Your gates?

I worry that I carry in my blood
All the things that my father was,
That I've received all his addictions,
And all the sins will be repeated.

I so I wear his wedding ring
To remind me of the promises I made him.
But, more often than not,
I just reminds me how often I break 'em.

I feel it suffocate
All of my good intentions.
I feel it surfacing,
And I don't know how to prevent it.

And I am afraid
That you'll get in my way.
I have been saved,
But is that enough
To open up Your gates?

You're taking your time.
Am I wasting mine?
The feelings there just won't quit,
But I'm getting better at ignoring it.

And if I was completely
Honest with myself
About the things
That I love the most,
I would have to admit
That You don't even come close.

And I have tried to make it work,
But it always ends the same.
So is it worse to lie to yourself
Or to know and not be able to change?

When it is done,
We'll all get what we deserve.
We will be judged
As we judge each other;

And I am afraid
That I won't ever change.
I have been saved,
But is that enough
To open up Your gates.